Thursday, September 21, 2006
I know people hate me now.
Fine. Hate all you want.
All supported him.
I understand.
I'm the evil one right?
I'm the 'Fatalia' right?
I have nothing to prove anymore.
You all have made up your mind.
Hate me, kill me.
I'm the criminal yes?
No one bothers to find out how I'm doing yes?
Cuz only what he said was true?
Only what he said was relevant yes?
Why should you listen to me? I am the criminal.
I deserve to be caged for life.
Everyone is convienced that I am the one who tagged it all.
All evidence points to me yes?
Well, everyone has made up their mind.
Why should I try to change your mind?
You made it already.
In your eyes I'm the bitch, criminal, the-fucker-who-should-go-to-hell.
But in those who love me, I'm just the dauhgter, sister, friend who nobody cares for anymore, except for them.
I know myself.
I know what I'm guilty of.
I'm guilty of dissing Afiq in my blog.
I am sorry Afiq.
But what am I to do?
I'm irrelevant. Nothing I say or do will change anything.
And I'm not guilty of works of 'Fatalia'.
But who would listen to the girl who's dignity was lost?
Who's fragile heart was healing yet again crushed.
No one needs the criminal in their life.
All I have to say is, some of you may not need a girl like me.
But there is someone out there who does.
When I find him, I'll be filled with dignity.
He won't take it from me because he truly loves me.
No matter how the evidence proves my wrong, he'll have faith.
Faith and trust knowing that all that was just make-up.
Faith and trust knowing that the one he loves would never do such a thing.
Faith and trust knowing that even if she did do it, that's the way she is and he loves her for the way she is.
Faith and trust knowing that eventhough the crimes she may seem guilty of, loving her isn't something he'll regret.
"People always say live is full of choices, but no one ever mentioned fear."
I live fear at times.
But if fear eats me, what will become of me?
I know that I have to get better.
I know I'm not a criminal but a girl who lost a lot within a month.
But I know, when you lose something or someone, Allah will replace it.
Just a matter of who, when or where.
I have to thank Allah for the 3 angels that were sent to me.
You know who you are. Your small actions have big impacts.
I thank you. Truly.
People say that all you need in life is someone who truly loves you, I was someone's "someone".
But Allah has other plans for me.
Bigger and maybe better plans.
I'm waiting for life to unfold herself infront of me.
Her true colours are yet to be seen.
But she knows, people talk, usually without thinking.
And usually it isn't true.
I hereby repeat myself.
I am not "Fatalia".
I have not visited the 3 blogs.
I still have not been to the 3 blogs to read the tags.
I don't intend to because I don't need to.
All evidence point to me.
So be it. They aren't the fingers of Allah.
Evidence are just evidence. No one ever said that they are 100% true.
Evidence are found by human, therefore it can make sense but doesn't mean it's 100% true.
Truth lies with Allah.
You want the truth?
Ask Allah, literally.
So think and say what you want but nothing will ever beat the fact the I am innocent.
And that one day all will be known.
Maybe before or after Armegeddon.
But that day will come.
And on that day, the ones who dread me, will be dreaded by the Almighty.
May your Iman guide you and keep you safe.
That is all I have to say for now.
So much pain I've suffered, still suffering.
Maybe the worst is yet to come.
I'll be ready to fight.
I onced said," I'm a fighter,".
I mean what I say.
Until I breathe the last breath, losing is not an option, it's not even a choice.
Good night.
May Peace Be Upon You.
--- *Reiha@9:19 PM ---
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