Monday, December 18, 2006

Oh darn. Emotions are back to get me again. LONELINESS, LONGING & POIGNANT just to name a few. I hate the voice that tells me, "You have to accept *so-and-so*'s request to be with you. If you don't you'll regret it and that another one might never come by ever again,". Yes I hate it. I mean do I really need him? Do I really need any other man for that matter? Do I really need a man to bring me happiness? You have no idea how hard it is for me to reject this guy. He's my long time buddy and hurting him isn't an exception. But I'm not ready to commit myself to anyone. (my bro says I'm to cute for a commitment. heee!) I don't want to face the pressure of being in a r/s. I don't need it. I don't want to be hurt in the end. More importantly, if it ain't gonna last, then don't waste my time. I DO want to remain unattached, but it's my alter-ego that creates set backs. I hate that. I feel like there's completely two different people living within me. One wants me to be wary of my decisions and the other says, "What the hell. Let the wind take your wherever it want. No harm right?". YES there is harm. Having you heart shattered into pieces, is that not hurt? God, I'm in a insane asylum. I need a break. I need a "runaway".

One more thing. My family is considering having an arranged marriage for me. I somehow think I would agree with them. Call me crazy but yes I think I'd pretty much agree. Why? Cuz at least my family would pick a good man that comes from a good background. Simply said, they won't pick just any Tom, Dick or Harry, like I would. OMG. What on earth and I saying? Why the heck am I thinking about such things now? Goodness, I think I'm deranged. Maybe I'm delirious? Someone help please?

--- *Reiha@11:15 AM ---

Vignette

Nur Fariha; The Light Of Happiness

Farie Rose. Jargon to many, still loved by many. And has only one principle in life. SMILE (:

Beautiful is the light of happiness,
Tainted by sadness,
The light shall not be,
In it's purest form it shall shine
Bringing hope to people it certainly shall.

Tale of The Heart

To meet,
To love,
To know,
To part – that is the saddest tale of the human heart.

When two hearts meet,
One would blush,
One would grin,
One would steal glances,
In hope to find love.

When the two hearts love,
Nothing in the world seemed wrong,
Nothing others said matter,
Nothing could part them,
Only loves' warmth kept it going.

When the hearts begin to know,
Doubts began to rise,
Tension began to rise,
Confusion began to rise,
Yet clinging on to the past comforted it.

And when the hearts part,
Dreams are shattered,
Tears are shed,
Despair took its toll,
Leading one back to where she began.

To meet before love.
To love before know.
To know and hope to not part again.

-Nur Fariha

Gibberish

Memoir

September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
April 2008

Vinculum

*amira(: izakechik abang rhel(: dan-cinghero ernieza fadillah faddy(: fiza fara(: fitriah iylia jan jannah kak farahin(: kak feika kak syida adeq ayil mal lin giler(: lynne nabillah nanavodka raudhah tirmidizi(: zaidah zara
FRIEDSTER
Teater Tari Era
Siti Nurhaliza <33
Norfasarie
Hyrul Anuar
Hafiz As'ari
Mr.Wong & Ms.Sim

Kudos

illusionation