Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Today, there's so many emotions running through me that I just feel like I should write them out here. Okay. Well firstly, I somehow feel alone. All alone. Yes, I have friends. Yes, I go out with my buddies. But I do not have anyone who knows me deeply. Who knows me as me. I do not have anyone where I can run too and I'm sure that person will make me feel better. No, don't think that I'm in need for a guy. I just need a p-e-r-s-o-n who knows, understands me. Someone who'll hear me out and actually listens. I'm so sick of people looking down on me, not taking me seriously and making use of me. You have no idea how fucking mad or sad it makes me. I just need someone to comfort me. Someone to show me the light and take me out of this darkness which I was thrown into yet again. So yes, I'm lonely. Very lonely.

I also, somehow, feel kinda heartsick (check to meaning out before you come to any conclusions.). Why? I guess things that have happened/are happening makes me feel this way. I know for a fact that the human heart can heal, but it'll never fully heal, leaving a hole. Until that hole is filled, maybe with a new affection or addiction, the human will forever feel it's emptiness. Maybe I'm still finding that addiction/affection. Oh, I don't know. I learn from my past. But somehow, I think, if my past repeats itself, I'll be much happier. There is still a part of me that screms to me saying," Don't cling on. Just go on. Just live life as it is. Make today better than yesterday. And make tomorrow better then today," . Of course that part of me is absolutely right. But things are easier said then done.

I guess all I'll do now is wait and see where life brings me. Wait and see what life wants from me. I'll just go on with what I have and need to do. Because at the end of it all, this light of happiness will still come to her end.

--- *Reiha@2:36 PM ---

Vignette

Nur Fariha; The Light Of Happiness

Farie Rose. Jargon to many, still loved by many. And has only one principle in life. SMILE (:

Beautiful is the light of happiness,
Tainted by sadness,
The light shall not be,
In it's purest form it shall shine
Bringing hope to people it certainly shall.

Tale of The Heart

To meet,
To love,
To know,
To part – that is the saddest tale of the human heart.

When two hearts meet,
One would blush,
One would grin,
One would steal glances,
In hope to find love.

When the two hearts love,
Nothing in the world seemed wrong,
Nothing others said matter,
Nothing could part them,
Only loves' warmth kept it going.

When the hearts begin to know,
Doubts began to rise,
Tension began to rise,
Confusion began to rise,
Yet clinging on to the past comforted it.

And when the hearts part,
Dreams are shattered,
Tears are shed,
Despair took its toll,
Leading one back to where she began.

To meet before love.
To love before know.
To know and hope to not part again.

-Nur Fariha

Gibberish

Memoir

September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
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July 2007
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April 2008

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Hafiz As'ari
Mr.Wong & Ms.Sim

Kudos

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